Thursday, December 31, 2009

January 01, 2010 - No Chains

No Chains

Let not my heart be chained to thee
Please loose these shackles now
Don't clip my wings so I can't fly
As I may forget how

I was born a free spirit
And I must fly
I have to spread my wings
I must be free to express myself
You mustn't change
In me these things

No chains are needed
To hold my love
My passion for you only burns
I'll love you no matter where I roam
I may fly but I'll return

-Neva Flores 2009

December 31, 2009 - A Mile

A Mile

Space is so essential
And a necessary thing
An inch of you I may ask
But I do not need a mile
I need so very much
To see your sweet, sweet smile

I long to hear the voice
That is music to my ears
To hear those whispered
Words of love
It seems like it's been years

Please take back this inch
You've given me
It's turned into a mile
Take it back
I miss you so
If just for a little while

- Neva Flores 2009

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

December 30, 2009 - For You I Am Still

For You I Am Still

Our hearts speak a language
Of our very own
We speak in a dialect
Of a great love once known

My Heart, My Twin
For you, I am still

Memories awash
In the back of our minds
Of a life together
That we must, live again

Who was I to you
What did we share
Our minds cannot recall
But our hearts, know it's there

Sweet memories
They haunt me
As I recall, touching your face
I cry even now, as I see you
As you walked away

My Heart, My Twin
I promised to wait
And I'll wait
A lifetime again

For You
I have always
Been Still

-Neva Flores 2009

Monday, December 28, 2009

December 29, 2009 - Time


Time it passes
Oh so fast
Life is at full speed
Yesterday I was a child
With few cares and needs

Our youth and beauty is but brief
Gone in the blink of an eye
Swirling downward like the sand
In the hourglass of time

We must live and laugh and love
And not forget to dance
Seek out by what we are most blessed
And not give discontentment
Even a second glance

The sands of time in my life
Will run their course one day
But this I pray with all my heart
That I will not forget
To live and laugh and love
And always smile and dance
All along the way

-Neva Flores 2009

Sunday, December 27, 2009

December 28, 2009 - Experience


There comes a time
When one must determine
Of what they cannot be a part
A list of needs to be prepared
And branded deep into their heart

A lifetime of experience
Enables one this to decide
The joy and pain of choices made
Can be used as quite a guide

As I compose this list of needs
And fire up my branding iron
I return to my past misdeeds
And by what my triumphs were inspired

I pray with all that is in my soul
That I place wisdom in this brand
And it stays forever burned
Into my heart
As I face each day unplanned

-Neva Flores 2009

Saturday, December 26, 2009

December 27, 2009 - The Spirit Has Thorns

 The Spirit Has Thorns

Some reach out for what they seek
Caring not if it is their own
They pluck it from the place it rests
And try to change its song

They try to bend it to their will
Change its form to fit their needs
Possession is their only goal
The danger they don't see

The spirit of the softest heart
Has thorns that one can't see
A vain attempt to take what is
Not your own
Will only make You bleed

-Neva Flores 2009

Friday, December 25, 2009

December 26, 2009 - A Little While

A Little While

You don't understand me
I don't expect you to
This deep spiritual need I have
Directs me differently than you

I am a soul, born unique
Unusual it's true
And I have needs
That I must meet
To do the things I do

Peace at times
I must have
In order to create
Creation is the air I breathe
With no peace I suffocate

Please don't take offense with me
If at times it seems I hide
And shut the world out
Including you
As there's no offense implied

So let me have this time I plea
To do what I do differently
I will be back to laugh and smile
I just need a little while

-Neva Flores 2009

Thursday, December 24, 2009

December 25, 2009 - Beauty Awakening

Beauty Awakening

A broken heart
Was all she had to give
So afraid to laugh and live
No more tears did she wish to cry
So she numbed her soul
And told love goodbye

Her world was shattered
With grief and pain
Her spirit no longer could maintain
She hid her heart and made it cold
Alone was how she would grow old

So long had this spirit been asleep
A passionate fire
pushed way down deep
Shining eyes and a gentle smile
They were there all the while

In her sleep she wished to remain
Alone and cold in her pain
Then another heart
With beauty deep
Brought great love
And woke her from her sleep

Beauty is awakened
Love does exist
This beautiful heart
She could not resist

-Neva Flores 2009

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

December 24, 2009 - Achangin'


How long have I been here
Wearing these same old shoes
This wandering heart
It must be tired
And given up, its Gypsy ruse

Nowhere long have I remained
To compose a single rhyme
My soul has been a traveler
Lost in space and time

I do believe
That I've grown weary
Of always changing spaces
And somehow grown
accustomed to
These familiar faces

That rambling fever
Running through my veins
No longer must be aragin'
I have been here much to long
For me to be achangin'

-Neva Flores 2009

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

December 23, 2009 -Eyes of Blue

Eyes Of Blue

I stand here
And I wait
Wait expectantly
To see the one
Of which I dream
And I pray
That he dreams of me

My dreams they are haunted
By his face
His steely eyes of blue
Does he dream
Of bright eyes of green
And does my face
Haunt him too

So many nights
I have walked in dreams
With my small hand in his
And awakened reaching out
To only nothingness
Does he too
Dream of this

Does he stand there
As I do
And wait expectantly
To see the one
Of which he dreams
And pray she is dreaming
Of him too

I will stand here
And I will wait
Until I know his heart
Is mine

And I will dream of
His eyes of blue
Until the end of time

-Neva Flores 2009

Monday, December 21, 2009

December 22, 2009 - A Heart's Reflection

A Heart's Reflection

I see you, I feel you
I don't have to look hard
To see what's inside you
And know how beautiful
You are

I see your tears
I feel your pain
I'm overwhelmed by your
Confusion and shame

My beautiful friend
You don't have to stay here
Let me help you
Leave from this space
You deserve to be happy
And wear a smile on your face

Undeserved hurt has been inflicted
It has cut you deep like a knife
Don't let this pain
Destroy what's left of your life

Pick up the pieces
Of your shattered heart
What is broken
Can be made whole
No matter how torn apart

Look into my eyes
See the reflection of your heart
You don't have to look hard
To see how beautiful
You are

-Neva Flores 2009

Sunday, December 20, 2009

December 21, 2009 - Sand Castles

Sand Castles

I had a dream last night
You, my love were there
We walked along the shoreline
The wind blew through our hair

We walked hand in hand
Collecting shells
And watching the ocean's beauty deep
We pledged our love forever
A promise
We planned to keep

We built castles in the sand
Fortresses we thought would hold
Our defense against the world
To keep our love from growing cold

We took the lovely shells we found
And placed them one by one
Around the walls of our castle grounds
To show our love
To everyone

As we looked upon the beauty
Of what we two had built
The tide rushed in and took it all
And left us standing there in guilt

My love
Let's, let this dream of mine
Be a lesson learned
A strong foundation
Built on solid ground
Will lasting love
Forever earn

-Neva Flores 2009

December 20, 2009 - Father


Would it matter if you knew
I speak of you to everyone I see
Would your heart be softened
And your forgiveness
Known to me

Would you be proud of me
If you only knew
How I have learned to stand alone
And what a strong woman
I have come to be

You will always be my first love
And my number one
The one who I thought
Would never judge
No matter what I've done

Can you ever understand
That how much you care
I see
But I couldn't grow myself
If you were always fixing me

-Neva Flores 2009

Saturday, December 19, 2009

December 19, 2009 - In Your Eyes

In Your Eyes

In your eyes
I feel invincible
So powerful and strong
You see me
As I want to be
You hear
My true song

You see the fighter
That I am
The warrior
Proud and free
In your eyes
I am everything
I ever want to be

It makes me
Stronger every day
And that strength
It grows
In every way

Just to know
That you see me
As the one
I want to be

 Neva Flores 2009

Thursday, December 17, 2009

December 18, 2009 - Masks


I have a mask
I wear it well
What is underneath
I wish to tell

When I'm alone
I take it off
And contemplate it's fate
Will I wear it once again
And myself berate

We all wear masks
That we reveal
To the different ones, we meet
With some, we lift it up a bit
And with some it stays complete

Could your mask
Perhaps be
The white lie, that you told
Or could it be
Your tolerance
To the things
In which you don't uphold

Yes, we all wear masks
From time to time
And fail to stand up
For our beliefs
The question is, my friend
Does the mask you wear
Practice to deceive?

- Neva Flores 2009

December 17, 2009 - Revelation


Hello my sweet friend.
It seems I have been asleep forever.
My eyes have been closed for numerous ages
And have not seen your heart.

Your heart is so bright and achingly beautiful
That I must go back to sleep
And turn away as to continue looking
Could pull me into places I am afraid to go.

I have seen you with my eyes closed
As you are in front of me.
Yet I have not seen you as you truly are
With my eyes and heart wide open.

This revelation strikes chords in my soul
That I never knew existed.
How could I have been so blind?

I must take leave of your heart's beauty
And find refuge in my sleep
As remaining here in this revelation
May change my destiny in such ways
As I am not prepared to see.

© Neva Flores 2009

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

December 16, 2009 - The Eyes Of A Heart

The Eyes Of A Heart

You wait alone in silence
I can feel you there
Standing in the shadows
My soul you want laid bare

My eyes are blinded
By your light
They look but they don't see
This heart it feels you
And it knows
That what you stand for
I don't need

Continue waiting in your silence
My joy you cannot take
These eyes, they may not see you
For what you really are
But my heart's eyes
Can feel you
And they, are wide awake

© Neva Flores 2009

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

December 15, 2009 - Solitude


A peace I find when I'm alone
And no one else is near
Renews my soul
It clears my mind
And chases away my fears

I am free to explore my world
Find out what makes it turn
I come here to this quiet place
And find so much to learn

I find myself when I am here
What is hidden in my heart
I once again find the strength
I need to stand alone
My Solitude
And I
Will never part.

Neva Flores - 2009

Monday, December 14, 2009

December 14, 2009 - Solace


Outside the storm is raging
There is solace here
Strong the winds
Are waging
But you are safe
With me
My Dear

I will hold you close to me
And wipe away your tears
Your heart is ever safe with me
Draw closer to me Dear

You need not ever
Be afraid
To just be yourself
I will place no judgment here
I'm no saint myself

Come and stand beside me
And hold your head up high
I'll shield you from
The winds and rain
And never say goodbye

Neva Flores 2009

Sunday, December 13, 2009

December 13, 2009 - Twin Flames

Twin Flames

Your face I did not recognize
Your voice I'd never heard
Yet your heart was so familiar
And your eyes spoke many words

You know me like I know myself
How can this be so?
I too, know the same of you
I cannot let this go.

Love at first sight
Is spoken of
In this I do not believe
Can two hearts
Be forever bound as one
And each other
Never leave?

Are hearts made for one

And one alone

For all eternity
And will they seek
Until they find
What was created
Thus to be

© Neva Flores 2009

Saturday, December 12, 2009

December 12, 2009 - Himself


My Love he does not
To me bring
Flowers, jewels and such
He knows I care not
For these things
And my heart
They do not touch

My Love he brings
His smile to me
His reassuring touch
He whispers words of love
To me
And they mean
So ever much

My Love he brings me
Pieces of his heart
Giving of himself
Holding back no part

What need should I
Ever have
Of material things

When the greatest gift
Of all
My Love daily brings

Neva Flores

Friday, December 11, 2009

December 11, 2009 - This Place

This Place

Sometimes I visit you
When you are out
And I see that
You visit me too

I come to see
What makes you smile
And sets your heart aglow
All of this is part of you
And are things
I want to know

It makes me smile
When I see
The things that we both share
My interest in you ever grows
As I see new things
Of which
I was not aware

I may not ever see your face
Or even shake your hand
But this I know
With all my heart
I have found a friend

Neva Flores

Thursday, December 10, 2009

December 10, 2009 - A Difference

A Difference

Each one of us is a light
In at least one other
Person's life
We encourage and influence
At least one other's
Daily fight

We walk an unbeaten path
For at least one to follow
While we lead
Our outstretched hand is there
To help at least one
Who is in need

We may be the only smile
One other person sees
And turn a heart around
That no longer wants to be

So remember every day
As you deal with your own strife
Your smile, your hand, your lead
Makes a difference
In someone else's life

Neva Flores

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

December 09, 2009 - My Search

My Search

I have spent a lifetime
Searching for you
So many different places
Has that search
Taken me to

I have known great joy
And shed many tears
I have lived and laughed
And loved
While searching
All these years

I have made mistakes
Yes, quite a few
Learning what I
Need and want
In my search for you

I have felt great pain
And danced out
In the rain
All of the while
Still searching
For your smile

All at once
There came a day
I thought my
Search it was in vain
I gave up on my quest
And gave this search
A rest

All at once
To my surprise
I looked into your eyes
And I knew my search
No longer had to be
As you
Had found me

© Neva Flores 2009

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

December 08, 2009 - Safe Haven

Safe Haven

You look at me with
Cold hard eyes
I am pulled under by your pain
I want so much
To reach out to you
And keep you from drowning
In your own rain

Such high walls you have
Placed around you
To defend your hurting soul
You push and shove
And demand your way
Yet I know your hearts not cold

Please don't cry inside
As I cry with you
Don't hurt so much
I can feel it too

For just this once
Trust again
And let your walls come down
Your scars I cannot help you to erase
But with me
Your safe and sound

-Neva Flores

Monday, December 7, 2009

December 07, 2009 - My Conscience

My Conscience

Deep inside my mind
I hear a still small voice
It speaks to my heart of things
Of which I have a choice

It is the voice I hear
When I think of what
I should or shouldn’t do
The voice of reason telling me
That to myself
I always, must be true

This still small voice I hear
When in anger
I wish to respond
It reminds me to be oh so still
And keeps me from the things
Of which I am not fond

That same small voice it speaks to me
When I am pressed for time
It tells me to listen patiently
To try to never be unkind
Be it friend or stranger
It makes no never-mind

If I should ever wake and find
That my still small voice
Has left my mind
That my heart has hardened
And grown so cold
I pray that I will be so ever bold
And that I will search to the end of time
Until my still small voice
Again I find
-Neva Flores

Saturday, December 5, 2009

December 06, 2009 - If


If a life can be suddenly shattered
And dreams can be broken in two
What joy can one find in knowing
It could all at once
Be taken from you

In an instant a heart
That is trusting and true
Can be hardened and made bitter
With grief
Love, no longer able, to give or receive
Pain has taken all hope
Like a thief

If we are given all knowledge
Of what our futures will hold
Would life be the journey
Of continuous wonder
That in each new day
We behold.

If given the choice of knowing
How each of my days will unfold
Or living each day as it comes
New, unchartered and bold
I would send my heart out there
To be broken
Shattered or torn
And chance having my dreams
Taken away

I would choose to go forth blindly
And take each day as it comes
Accepting the good and the bad
For if one never takes chances
To risk feeling heartache and pain
What kind of happiness
Could they ever attain?
-Neva Flores

Friday, December 4, 2009

December 05, 2009 - Returned


It is said that true love
Surpasses all time and space

The reality of this did not strike me
Until I first saw your face

I knew the eyes
I once gazed into
My heart knew at first glance

The great love that I once had
I have been returned to
This could not be happen-chance

If hearts are intertwined forevermore
And Kindred Spirits remain kin
The greatest love I have ever known

Has returned to me again.
-Neva Flores

Thursday, December 3, 2009

December 04, 2009 - Unconfined


I miss the other part of me

With who I am my best
The beginning and the end of me
The completion of my quest

I miss the one who knows my heart
And understands my mind
Possesses every part of me
Yet never does confine
-Neva Flores

December 03, 2009 - Visitor


Late at night

When I am fast asleep
A gentle nudge
Awakens me
And my heart skips a beat

I am confused
And oh so shaken

Searching evermore
To find what did awaken me
And knock at my heart's door

My heart it leaps
My lips they smile
I go right back to sleep
Knowing I am safe and sound

As it was your heart

All the while.

-Neva Flores

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

December 2, 2009 - My Heart Is Your Piano

My Heart Is Your Piano

Your hands play beautiful music
As they play on my heart’s keys
I am filled with awe and wonder
It’s such a mystery

Some before have come to play
And lovely music made
A symphony of such beauty you create
A tune that will not fade

Each key you touch
Becomes your own
A harmony breaks free
My heart is your piano
And it plays only for thee
-Neva Flores

Sunday, November 29, 2009

November 30, 2009 - Separately Together

Separately Together

There is so much I need to do
I cannot just stay right here with you
There are so many places I want to be
And you can't always be right here with me

If we both could be everywhere at once
All at the same time
What happiness would this bring?
If we both sang the same song all the time
What new song could we sing?

Our path is one, our walk is two

When I'm away I'm still right here with you
Finding new things to learn and see
To share with you
When you're right here with me

Together, apart, You and me
Always together, Separately

-Neva Flores

November 29, 2009 - I Can't Even Tell Myself

I Can't Even Tell Myself

You are my deepest secret
Kept hid upon my highest shelf

I speak of you to no one
I can't even tell myself

When I am alone

I take you down
And peer inside your box

I memorize each item
And time is stopped upon my clock.

I am lost in thought
Of what could be

If you, I did not have to
Hide from me

Time moves once again
I put you back
Upon my highest shelf
I smile inside and know you're there
I just don't tell myself.

-Neva Flores

Saturday, November 28, 2009

November 28, 2009 - Listen To Me

Listen To Me

You ask for truth
I speak it freely
I tell you how I feel
You say you hear me,
Yet I think you never will

Why does it always have to be your way
Do my feelings make a difference to you?
Our friendship means so much to me
As I know I mean to you

One should not attempt to hold onto
A heart one does not freely give
But give wings to what they cherish
and smile and watch them live.

Please listen to me--
I have been listening to you.
-Neva Flores

Friday, November 27, 2009

November 27, 2009- What A Mother Feels

What A Mother Can Feel

Daughter of Mine
Sweet memories we find
As we speak late into the night
We recall laughter and kisses
Bright stars and our wishes
And how we were both always right

Now you are grown
With a child of your own
The heart of your heart
Your soul's delight
You see what a mother can feel

You ask my forgiveness
For all you think
You have done
Take blame for imagined hurt
You think you have placed

Daughter of Mine
My beautiful light
No apology is needed here
Now that you know what a mother can feel
Know in your heart this is true
I only recall your sweetness
and the light that you bring
Each time that I think of you.
-Neva Flores